Currently Playing Load By Metallica Bleeding Me see related

Eh, HI.....

This life can ce so exhausting sometimes....Really....

I mean, it's not easy when you really like a guy from you class, and today you find out how bad his temper really is and what kind of beast he is becoming....I so hate when some people try to look powerful in the eyes of the others and then torture weaker guys or just guys who don't want to make shit...So pathetic!!!Oh, God this shit disappinted me greatly.....I always say that I'm just TOO emotional....And that's not good at all....

Guess what!!!?? Again I'm listening to BLEEDING ME!!!!!

Currently Playing From Cradle to Enslave By Cradle of Filth see related

Just wanted to say :

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!!!! ENJOY IN THE BEST HOLIDAY EVER!!!!

Currently Playing Nemo Pt.1 By Nightwish see related

Hello!!!

Yesterday, I broke up with my boyfriend....It wasn't as painful as I expected...Of course- now he is trying to look like a poor victim....I feel more sorry for him than for the whole relationship...I mean, these 2 and a half months were really beautiful but now it's just over!!! It's not the same!!! I don't feel the same and he must understand that somehow....He was too stubborn so he has to find out that in a more painful way......Well, I'm sorry...

I, personally can say : FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!! At last, I can fool around, flirt with everyone to pain and enjoy!!!! Man, I'm evil.....

Currently Playing Load By Metallica see related

Hey.....

This fucking school is one huge shit....I desperately need to correct my marks and it's not very easy because the teachers are retarded...

But that's not THAT important right now....The important thing is that I don't know what to do with my boyfriend...Yes, that lovely, handsome, too nice boyfriend....Come on, people - this thing lasts for 2 and a half months!!! And it really was beautiful but now it's becoming painful and boring to me....Tomorrow we're going to meet and then I'll decide. Just....I don't know how to tell him....He's so sensitive and emotional....And, believe it or not - I'm scared. I don't want to hurt him badly, but I think I will....I'm aware that I'll feel sorry, I'll be depressed and sometimes even lonely but I need freedom. I need that kind of independence.... God, I didn't know that I will be so soon in this situation.....

Oh, and these are the best lyrics in the world....Perfect, but perfect for my style of writing, thinking and surviving the problems :

Metallica - Load

BLEEDING ME

I'm diggin' my way
I'm diggin' my way to something
I'm diggin' my way to somethin' better

I'm pushin' my stay
I'm pushin' my stay to something
I'm pushin' my stay to something better

I'm sowing the seeds
I'm sowing the seeds I've taken
I'm sowing the seeds I take for granted

This thorn in my side
This thorn in my side is from the tree
This thorn in my side is from the tree I've planted

It tears me and I bleed

Caught under wheels roll
I take the leech I'm bleeding me
Can't stop to save my soul
I take the leash that's leading me
I'm bleeding me I can't take it
Caught under wheel's roll
The bleeding of me

I am the beast that feeds the beast
I am the blood, I am the release
Come make me pure
Bleed me a cure
I'm caught under

Just impressive.....

KEEP FIGHTING FOR METAL!!!

Currently Playing Edward the Great By Iron Maiden The Wicker Man see related

Ahhhhh......This fucking school is killing me!!!!  And at the moment I have a cold....GO IMMORTALITY !!!! Yeah....Always some kind of pain....

Luckily, I have crazy, great and 100% insane friends at school and in my place + my cute, dear boyfriend + precious music and those are the things that are keeping me alive! So, I'm not going to die....

Now, these guys are something very special:

http://www.sr.se/press/bilder/p3_jul/Iron_maiden.jpg

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KEEP FIGHTING FOR METAL!!!